Mood: Slaphappy
Listening to: Only Love Can Break Your Heart-Amilia K Spicer (or the Corrs)
Eating: Chocolate muffin
Drinking: Fruit Juice <3
Playing: Kirby Air Ride
Reading: Chibi Vampire
Thinking: School....Must...Finish....Last 3 Days


   So last time I started talking about that imaginary guy, and honestly if he was real, I wouldn't care if he could play the guitar or not. I mean it would be cool if he could play an instrument or sing, but in reality who cares? You fall in love with who you fall in love with. (Please try and keep it legal ^+^).
   Lately I've been wondering if I'm doomed to fall in love with a guy older than me. I mean twelve years older than me. My mother did, I think my grandmother almost did. Then are my kids going to be twelve years apart? My brother and I are. Then I think my oldest brother and youngest of my older sister are. :/ What an odd predicament.... Hm...
   So online I've been talking to older guys a lot lately (danger alert!!!) and they're pretty cool. One of them is named Jesus!!! Not Hey-zues, literally Jesus. How awesome is that right?! I just think that's so epic!! <3 <3 <3 Then another one is in the Navy. He makes me super happy. :) Well they all make me happy, and giggly. I mean seriously. Friends are supposed to make you happy right?
   Which brings me to my next point. Since I haven't been saying anything, you people probably don't know that my best friend was pissing me off for almost this whole year. :( Now she's not. I mean I don't know if it was her, or if I was just being stupid.... Oh and I've decided that I no longer like him, or want anything to do with him (well romantically. He's still a cool friend. ^+^) It just caused too much drama, and I was tired of feeling sad. Plus as I'm pretty sure I said last time, every time I thought of him, I thought of that boy that probably doesn't exist...
   Oh yeah. My mother yelled at me and called me an a**hole yesterday. For not cleaning up something that I didn't even know was out! Honestly though she wasn't in the wrong so I can't be mad at her. I think I've only been mad at her once. I felt bad because she looked so tired yesterday. :( And there wasn't really anything I could do for her so....

  So I'm using the school's computer for today's entry and this is the only thing I could upload. I don't really even get it, but you can make your own story if you feel like it. :)
   Three days of school left... I can make it! I CAN MAKE IT!!!! XD You know if anyone actually does read this, please leave a comment or something. I don't like this lonely feeling for this poor blog. :(
  

Time to Catch Up

Mood: Mixed Feelings
reading: Chibi Vampire
Watching: Easy A
Eating: Chicken
Drinking: Orange Crush Soda
Listening to: Celtic Music


So.... Where to start? I'm finally over him. Officially. I've been thinking about a lot of things, and yeah... I could never be with someone like him, plus he's... well there's nothing wrong with him. He's just meant for someone else. Bleh... I want to find him...... The boy with blue eyes and black hair.... He's been in my mind a lot lately. And my dreams.......
   So Friday the 13 was pretty cool! I got in a car accident and lived! (Always wanted to do that) And I got money, and my friends didn't piss me off! It was just great. I've also been hanging with my friend whom I ever hardly ever see!!! She was my most bestest of bestest friend when we were tiny.....Ah good times... Good quarters/ nickels. :D
  This year is almost over.... And despite the drama, and all the stupid struggles, I think I'm going to miss it. I'm going to miss Kevin and Willis and Deanna and Keenan... You guys were great! We should all meet up at Keenan's graduation parties! (Since we won't see him at ours! XD)
   I'm also going to miss all my daydreams and the rain. It seems the weather matched my mood this year. Cloudy when I was happy, and sunny when I was sad! XD

So here are my latest doodles with the tablet. :D WOOHOO!!! XD

http://pita-tenten.deviantart.com/
http://www.furaffinity.net/user/pita-tenten/
Here are my two art profiles. :3 YAAAAAAY! P.S. the furaffinity one... Well let's just say that that website can be pretty scary..... Anyway...

I really wish you were real.... The boy with blue eyes, black hair, marble white skin, pink lips, can play the guitar, loves anime and manga, and just perfect for me...

The Thing About Life Is... (Osama Bin Laden stuff later)

It's just right.

Mood: Longing
Eating: Strawberry Chicken
Drinking: V8
Playing: Soul Calibur 3
Reading: FREAKING PRINCESS BRIDE
Listening: Glikk-Cousin's band! :D


Today in health we were talking about dating, date rape, abstinence, and BUTTERFLIES!!! They are the most amazing bug in my opinion! Apparently a butterfly (especially a Swallowtail) will protect it's spouse from a bird! Amazing right?! XD On a different subject: In all honesty I don't understand why it's so hard to stay abstinent. I mean yeah those feelings are natural and everyone feels them, but why do people listen to them that much? Because you don't need to act on them as soon as you feel them. Sure there are pressures of today, and people pressure you into it, but you know what words are great to live by? SCREW 'EM!!!! XD Ah the movie Angus can be used for many things.
  But in all honesty, I know it's hard. I mean if you knew me, you would know how much I feel that crap! DX Grossness. Oh well. Sans the life. I say "Don't worry be happy!!!" SEE!!! Even Bob Marley helps!! :D

Did you know that just one person can change the world? Even if it is one person at a time!!! And do you know the best person to start with is?

You.

 Every time someone tells me they hate their life, I always want to cry. Because they never know just how great it really is. I mean yeah they may have crap happening at every turn, but at least they have to turn to have the crap thrown at them. Some people can't even go straight without something crappy happening to them. Or even move!! Life wasn't meant to be easy, but it wasn't meant for you to give up on yourself.



 You know what's funny? I know what Osama Bin Laden did was super wrong, and pretty much the douchiest thing anyone could do to America, but I can't help but feel sorry for him. I mean how would you feel if people were celebrating that you died? It's sick and disgusting! What ever happened to keep your friends close and your enemies closer? If you do that, then your enemy might become your friend! It worked for me! And if it worked for a loser like myself, maybe it could work for you UNITED STATES OF AMERICA!!! You know I saw this a short film called Validation (Dare you to watch it), and I must agree. Osama does have a fantastic beard!

 Have you noticed that some of the world's most evil men all had some of the coolest facial hair?! I mean Osama has a cool beard, Hitler had an... interesting mustache, I'm certain others had cool beards. Man this makes me sound like I love these dudes. I don't. I just love learning about why they did the things they did. So weird I am.

 I had a really weird day once upon a time, and all I could do was talk like Yoda! I didn't even mean to. I just jumbled all my words weird. It was AWESOME!! Yoda is the only character I like in Star Wars. But it's just because I don't care for Star Wars. I will admit that it's awesome in so many aspects, but the storyline just straight up... Feels kind of... iffy to me. I can like it, but I can hate it at the same time. Oh well.

 Heehee. One of my first pictures drawn with a tablet! For a beginner tablet user I think it's great!
Soooo yeah. Remember. Abstinence is key, Osama has a coolio beard, and butterflies are an amazing symbol for the perfect partner.

QAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!

Mood: Confused
Eating: nothing
Drinking: Nothing
Playing: SSBM
Reading: Princess Bride

 Just chillin with Kevin (Kevina). He's playing Super Smash Brother's Melee. I'm debating about a lot of emotions. I want to see Drake.... But I don't want to see him.... It's because he has a girlfriend... Bleh. That pretty much sums it up. Welp! Kevin is making me laugh because he's laughing at himself. He's like a puppy!! XD HEEEEEEEEEEEEEY DRAKE!!!!! If you read this then all I have to say is.... read my mind! I'm certain you know what I'm saying. I'm saying GET ON FACEBOOK!!! Golly. :) That's all about I have to say this post. (Besides that Fish got in my house again. And I still don't like.... HER! DUN DUN DUUUUUUUUUUUN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!) TIME FOR A PICTURE!!!

LIFE!!! Or Something Like It.

Mood: Bleh. I feel GROSS!!! And cold...
Drinking: V8 To make myself feel better
Eating: I'm craving cheese again
Playing: How to fix my computer game. XD Because it sucks!!
Reading: I need to read the Princess Bride

  So right now I'm in that weird state where you want to hang out with someone, but you don't want to do anything. Pretty much I just want another useless person to sit around doing nothing with. Like staring at a wall.
  You know what? I'm either over him or just completely annoyed with the world right now, because I looked at a picture of him and his girlfriend, and I didn't feel anything. It was just like "oh look a picture. Cool." And when he said he wanted to come down in the summer, I felt.... something. I guess I was happy, but there was other stuff thrown in the pot.
  But it really might just be me annoyed at the world. I mean I'm annoyed because I don't like my friend's girlfriend, and I can already tell it's going to end badly, but I know that even if I told her that she wouldn't listen, so she's just going to have to get hurt much worse than if she just ended it now.
  Then Fish is still getting in my house, and I don't know what to do about it. I really want to keep her happy and such, but it's not going to happen because her and my cat don't get along. If I could I would just send her to one of those people who are super amazing with animals and they never kill them... But unfortunately she still has owners. My mom thinks that they might put her to sleep if we complain about her, so I don't want to do that....
  And then there is good old high school. Where everything is a soap opera every day of someone's life. I miss having fun, and life being simple. Why can't it get less complicated with age?! I  mean you start out with life being fun and exciting, to everything being dramatic and frightening, to just plain complicated and busy.
  Great. Now I feel like crying... But I won't because this is just me ranting. I'll feel better in about a minute. Literally. Luckily I'm great at being optimistic in the weirdest of all situations. Maybe because I always play those games, and read those stories, and listen to those songs about being happy, and life will get better, and the only reason we are down in life is because we are staying to the ground and not pushing ourselves up.
  I really wish my computer was working right now! I can't hear anything from the internet! I can hear my media player and such, but nothing on the internet. T^T Sans my life. I'll just ask my brother tomorrow about it.

 This is the cover to my first ever comic! XD This story has also been the most complicated to make. It still is. All I know is that the main character has to go to an all boys school because of some studies thing. I originally named her Neko (Being an anime fanatic, your characters tend to start out with Japanese names), but lately she has just been Kat. Then the guy she will fall in love with was Shin, but now he is Shawn. And the guy she used to love will just stay Kaisuke. Simple as that. People used to call her Ino from Naruto! That always bugged me because SHE ISN'T INO!!! DX oh well.
  Whew. I feel much better now that I ranted my guts out! Which reminds me, I am re-reading Akuma to Love Song, and there was this one part where she said "We'll open our stomachs and spill our guts out together. <3" XD It was hilarious! XD She's not that creepy though I promise. :D
 You know what? Facebook bugs me. I mean what is the point of having 100 and something friends, if not even ONE OF THEM TALKS TO YOU?! It's so stupid and pointless!! Yet I get on everyday hoping to talk to someone, but there's no one who will talk to me!! Well besides Drake. :D You know what? Scratch what I said above. I still love him a lot. Maybe not the way I should or want to, but I do. So whatever. Life is weird. Anyway... The wind is blowing, the sun is shining, and I want to take a bath. So that means LIFE IS GREAT!!!